I wanted to write a description of the c-section and recovery, but have not found the time or attention span for it. So here are some bullet points from the last two weeks:
- Having a baby in the hospital is the peak experience of the process that begins during pregnancy wherein your body is not your own. It is a strange feeling of deconstruction. Two examples: Right before the c-section, the insertion of the catheter was done by someone in training and who had to make several tries at it before getting it right. Later, when a breast pump was being demonstrated on myself, my hospital room seemed to become a bus station, with various people coming in and out while the machine was chugging away. All modesty goes out the window and in some ways it is a relief. Now that I am out of the hospital, I must remember that showing everyone my breasts is no longer okay.
- My emotions have been all over the place, although much time has been devoted to the crying place. The Carly Simon song 'Coming Around Again' made me cry the other day, because of its appropriate use of the word 'bewildering' to describe parenthood. I even bought it on iTunes. The last song I bought before that was 'Taste the Pain' by the Red Hot Chili Peppers, which does not fully redeem this purchase.
- Breastfeeding has been the most physically painful part of this entire process, including recovering from a c-section.
- Everyone has their damn opinions on breastfeeding!
- What did people do before television after having a baby? Or was that when people just immediately went back to working the fields? Although I don't understand why there are hours at night with no shows - aren't we in a 24-hour society now?
- The shrieking specter of colic is showing its gaping maw. Fear it. Fear it.
- More later...
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